Alayode's Memoirs

The first time I was called 'a single married mother', I was like what is that?????? I thought about the title and cried after carefully analyzing the depth of that name.  A single married mother is a woman who is married and living with her husband but can as well be classified as a single mother because she does everything on her own and receives no assistance from her husband.  By saying everything, I mean financial, emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, sexual, and any other thing you can classify. Marriage is supposed to be a supportive partnership between two people that requires both parties to assist and support each other in achieving a common goal.  I can't wrap my head around how one partner feels happy seeing his other half going through so much pain and struggle in order to meet up with each day's needs.  How do you watch a woman age and be overwhelmed trying to make a home and you are looking like you just dropped out of a GQ Magazine? True love alway...

When God wants to send help And make life's journey easier He sends a few good ones To hold you through I consider myself favoured To have found one Who's driven this life with me In joy and in tears To my creamy cupcakes: For every moment you gave yourself For each day you truly loved and cared For every shoulder you offered This is my appreciation post To you girl ❤️ Thank you for the numerous blessings  It's so comforting to know you Thank you ❤️❤️❤️

Oluwasikemi My sparkling glittery and shiny star My sweet sister with amazing beauty  You are strong, resilient and determined You are a force and a goal getter Oh how I admire you... I can't even imagine the depth of knowledge  That's deep down in you  You are a bright light that cannot be deemed  Keep being you To know you is to love you ❤️ Ifedolapo My black chocolate creamy ice cream How beautiful you are ❤️ You are a definition of amazing I'm glad you are mine to call sister You love truly and deeply  And you care You've got so much strength in you I can't but admire that You are smart, intelligent, my fashion critic A city set on a hill My goal getter Thank you for the gift of you Oreoluwa My sweet twinny with drops of caramel You know I've got love for you Like a mighty ocean You amaze me and I admire your strength  You are strong, brilliant, smart, intelligent  You are beautiful inside out  The way you love me Gives me strength each day Yo...

My smile is my message My smile is my pain My smile is my tears My smile is my story  "You smile a lot",  "It's so beautiful",  "It makes you stand out",  "It's unique"...... These are few of the beautiful comments my smile brings.  I never knew how beautiful my smiles were till much later in life. Sometimes, when I look into a mirror, I look into my eyes and ask myself, "are you truly happy?".  Sometimes I shed a tear because I can't even answer the question,  sometimes I smile at myself and leave.  Truth is, behind the happy and smiley face is a lot of hidden pain, anxiety, worry, panic, hurt and tears.   Thankfully, the smiles are also heavy with thanksgiving, love and hope.  Thankfulness for God, my sisters and the amazing, few friends I have who have loved me genuinely and given me hope for tomorrow. My smile remains my treasure It remains my gift It remains my statement  It remains my signature I'll keep giving  I...

I wondered why…. Asked myself the same questions  Back to back Over the years I wondered why…… I've always been different  Just found the regular boring I was the exciting one Bubbling and bring life with me I thought it was bad To live my truth But then I realized  I had a light hidden in me I woke up to blossom Oh yes, I'm glad I did It has never been better My light shines brighter Now I've found love The best love ever The best gift ever I fell in love with me I realized what a beautiful gift I am An amazing treasure A pride to have A gift to nations I'm proud I didn't dim out I'm glad my gold came through  As I fight through the pain of rejection  I'll NEVER let anyone take out my light

Have you found yourself normalizing abuse? Do you see it as means of discipline or a way of life? Is abuse a form of correction to you? Do you even know you are being abused? Waking up to the awareness of what abuse is can be the beginning of your liberation and switch in life. Abuse is the improper usage or treatment of a thing, often to unfairly or improperly gain benefit. Abuse can come in many forms, such as: physical or verbal maltreatment, injury, assault, violation, rape, unjust practices, crimes, or other types of aggression. You are an abuser: Ø   If you deliberately treat him or her badly when you are alone with them but in a better light when you are in the midst of others. Ø   When you deliberately deprive your loved ones of the things you know bring them pleasure. Ø   When you choose the silent treatment as a form of deliberate punishment.   Now this can be dicey.   Some go silent when they are tired of communicating their mind because i...

I am strong I am able I am dignity personified I am me YES!!! I am a Victor My journey seems unreal My healing is amazing I’ve got the best support system I owe it all to YOU He is my All My Everything My most dependable, undisputed, ever faithful partner With you I never have to worry again You’ve got me always You love me always You are my GOD My first true love The real definition of amazing Grace Yes it’s all about you 

It’s been one year One year today One year of joy One year of love One year of peace One year of growth One year of beauty One year of healing One year of loving me One year of learning and unlearning One year of freedom from my abuser I thought the journey would be tougher Oh it got tough sometimes But it’s been a worthy tough one I love the process I’m glad I’ve been burnt out And the gold in me shines forth I’m the prize. I’m the real deal I know never to settle for less I’m glad I’m stronger I’m glad I’m wiser I’m glad I’m better I’m glad I’m more beautiful

A trampled rose That was not regarded She sought for love She had hopes for the fairy tales Love so true and pure Love that could heal Unfortunately, she was robbed She was deprived Of what she longed for Of what she dreamt of She gave up on it Never felt like it existed It was meant for the movies Not for humans to feel Then boom  The light flashed Took all the darkness out Healing all hurt with its strength She saw Love She felt Love She touched Love She kissed Love It was no longer a fairy tale It was no longer a mirage It was a reality That came to stay Love heals Love strengthens Love cures True love is real ❤